Father Winter

babybunny21

I’ve made a lot of bad choices in my life, I’ve given people more of myself than they deserved… but I know all of my mistakes were honest mistakes, I give people my all and when they decide to abuse my affection I don’t always see it, this makes me vulnerable and people feel they can walk all over me.

It seems now from experience that even though I had a handful of very close friends, like all things, over time, they forgot about me, I’m still here, just irrelevant. Forgotten.
And in the case of it being that I make plans, which is rare because my anxiety simply won’t allow me to, people are always just ‘busy’.

But busy in the way that they want to keep the date free incase something better comes up, I’ll usually get a maybe.

Well, now I’d say I can count on one hand the people I trust fully, but I never wanted to loose friends, I’ve never once decided I don’t want to be a friend to someone anymore, they all seem to forget about me, or find something better. Some even blame me for friendships breaking down.

I’m not angry at them, life goes on… People are not supposed to stay in your life forever… so I wish them well. Good luck to you, have a good life.

skibum1023

Your life is what make you it. Your thoughts become your actions. Your vision becomes your future. If that’s the vibe you put out. It’s the vibe you shall receive. Faith is everything.

abigaylenicoleighlove

Last night hours felt like minutes. Amongst fogged car windows we stole kisses & air. We closed out eyes and trusted, our hands held each other’s bodies, like we never wanted to let go. He looked into my eyes and saw the stars, I looked into his and saw the moon staring right back at me. He’s my best friend, we connect on some other level. He’s changed my life, and will continue to change my life. He’s taught me so many things, about the world around me & about myself. I know he’s meant to be in my life somehow, wether as a friend or a lover or something else, but I can not explain it. But it’s like we’re meant to go through our lives together in some way or another. And last night it was made clear to me that we will always love each other, but not necessarily in a romantic way, but in the way that one person wants to take care of another person, and care about another person, and in the way that someone only wants the best for another person. But it can also be in a romantic way too because that’s just part of the connection we have & regardless of out circumstances, that love will never die. I’m so confident of all of this because last night & the past 2 ½ months have showed me that. I hug him and it just feels like home. I wish last night was endless, I wish we could Have laid there and talked about why my mom is such a psychopath, and why people are fake, and why salt and vinegar chips taste so damn good, and why Dexter is a genius, and why destiny is the best video game ever and just about everything. We could talk about the same thing for eternity and it would never get old, just because of the dynamic we create in conversations we have. It’s so true what they say about the person who comes along and changes your life no matter how cliché it is. We are fixing the car right now and I don’t care how long it takes or how hard it is, as long as he’s by my side every step of the way. I have a really good feeling that it will be fixed at some point in the future but I also know that we will have some bumps along the way but that’s what makes fixing the car worth it. He’s my number one and I just love him to death. He’s my everything in every way, & want nothing more than for him to live happy, extraordinary, and amazing life, and I just hope that I’m a part of it for a long time. I just love you tons Malachi Lyall Ross. Never forget it bub.

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